To love,or to be loved?

I'll Be There.

2007-06-11T14:50:00.000+08:00

You and I must make a pact

We must bring salvation back

Where there is love

I'll be there

I'll reach out my hand to you

I'll have faith in all you do

Just call my name

And I'll be there

And oh, I'll be there to comfort you

I'll build my world of dreams around you

I'm so glad that I found you yeah

I'll be there with a love that's strong

I'll be your strength, you know

I'll keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter

Togetherness well its's all I'm after

Just call my name

And I'll be there

I'll be there to protect you

With an unselfish love I'll respect you

Just call my name

And I'll be there

If you should ever find someone new

I know she'd better be good to you

'Cause if she doesn't

Then I'll be there

Just look over your shoulder

Just call my name

And I'll be there

2007-06-07T19:27:00.000+08:00

im so fucken tired can?

well basically,went to sch today.

had art class and followed by netball training.

and i swear if the training continued any longer.

i can lyk die there.

ok so not true.

maybe just faint?

first ran 2.4.

i ran alone cus i turned up late as i ahd my art class to attend to.

then followed by drills and passes.

and then we have to run lyk 70++ laps of the netball court?

it was fucking tiring i swear.

everyone was lyk grumbling away.

had the shooters put in their shots well,we wouldnt have lyk run those laps.

but oh well,one for all,all for one.

and it's all in the mind.

that's what coach kept repeating.

ok that's all for now.

and i love abalone porridge.

fact im having it now.

2007-06-03T16:59:00.000+08:00

ok fcuk la i cant seem to upload the pictures.

fcuk fcuk fcuk okay?

2007-06-02T22:51:00.001+08:00

so i didnt have to time to blog ytd as i super busy.

and this is what happened.

first thing in the morning i went to sch at 8 am for my netball training.

started the training by running 2.4,

it was okay i supposed?

coach came late.

we did passes.

pretty tiring,but i didnt stayed for the whole training as i had to go for my english oral.

lyk wth kan?

exams over and now oral??

ok so the oral was okay.

but i think im gonna failed the picture dicussion.

i suck.

so after oral had my lunch in the canteen together with ain,syakinah and rose.

and then headed for our art class.

i didnt really had the mood to paint as i was lyk super sleepy!

me and rose paired up and we painted the 11th board which is a picture of the effiel tower or was it eiffel tower?ok whatever.

rose did the background and i did the structure.

so i left at 4 instead of 5.

cus had to accompanied my sis to fetch Nurinah.

i swear she's fucking adorable okay?

super cute pls.

she's nine month old.

she is so active that i slept at 9 plus

ytd.

put her to sleep first then i slept.

so today,i woke up at around 6.30 cus she was crying and i had to make her milk.

and she just wont go to sleep,so i asked my 2nd sis to 'take over'

change shift.haha ok lame.

she woke up at 9 plus.

super early okay.

so i had to wake up also cus everyone was fcuking tired and no one volunteered to look after her.

well i did then.

anyway i love babies.

bathe her and then feed her breakfast.

later in the day went to my cousin's wedding.

and gosh she looked pretty ok.

but she's lyk way shorter than me la.

lyk 150 cm or so?

but cute la.

and i ate alot there.

hahs.

went straight home after that.

and oh nurinah went back home already cus she gonna visit her mom tomorrow.

m glad she's gone but at the same time im gonna miss her!

she is super duper active i tell you and that's why im glad she's gone.

so yea.that's all i gotta say.

What if...

2007-06-01T02:54:00.000+08:00

What if I give you my smile?

Are you gonna stay for a while?

What if I put you in my dreams tonight?

Are you gonna stay 'till it's bright?

What if I give you my story?

Are you gonna listen to me?

What if I give you my heart?

Are we never gonna be apart?

What if... if I do ignore you?

Will you just walk away and cry?

What if I did disappoint you?

Are you gonna say goodbye?

What if I try to catch a flying snitch?

Are you gonna come with me?

What if I give you my song?

Are we gonna sing along?

What if... if you leave me right here?

Then I'm right here and waiting for you..

2007-06-01T02:01:00.000+08:00

ok it's 2.05 now and im still not asleep yet cus i just cant?

well went out with erykah and liyana just now.

and after that carmel came along.

poor her man,she got kicked out of her house.

ok so first thing when reached town,went to far east and ate long john.

so after eating went to meet yana's mom.

she was from work.

i gotta agree that aunty aida is a sexy momma!

so yea,followed her to tangs as she wanted to buy some perfume,

but we didnt went in.

stayed outside tangs as carmel wanted to smoke lyk really badly.

and after that we went to NYDC outside heeren to chill.

yana's mom treat us to ice creams,pizzas and bla bla.

yes,we ate again.

haha

cost her mom about $105.

ok so we went crazy at NYDC.

we were lyk dancing to the music that was being played while eating.

aunty aida joined in too.

how cool is that?

soon after that aunt aida's guyfriend came over.

and i swear he's ugly ok?

haha.

even yana thinks so.

the most fun part was we decided to irritated him by

BURPING-OUT-LOUD-CONTINUOUSLY!

and yes he was irritated!

he turned to stare at us.

then we laughed lyk mad la.

and soon after all that burping,we went to the toilet without aunt aida of course,

then me and yana puke due to the non-stop burping!

ok why am i telling all this?

ahh.nvm.

so yea then we took some pictures.

after we came back that guy already left.

so chill abit more.

then went to the toilet again

cus i needed to pee lyk really badly.

this time we went to the cineleisure cus heeren was already closed.

after that carmel went to smoke again.

there were quite alot of pretty hot guys at cine just now.

*winks winks*

so yea after that we cabb-ed home.

poor carmel dunno where she' gonna sleep and where she went.

and ohh,NYDC male waiters are pretty cute pls.

ok i guess that all i've got to tell?

so yea.

good night people!

and i love bf ok?

2007-06-01T01:52:00.000+08:00

ok so it's been lky months since i blogged.

idk why also.

maybe cus im lyk sick and tired of blogging.

but darn.before this i didnt really blog that much too ryte?

hahs oh well.

ok so life have been great so far.

things happened.

lyk really alot.

haha.

so do check out my blog.

i guess im gonna be lyk blogging every now and then.

2007-01-29T22:22:00.000+08:00

heylo dear readers!

im super happy today!

ok ok.

sch was okay today.

nothing much happened.

miss choo didnt come,so no POA.

i went home straight after sch.

went to singapore shopping centre for some stuff with erykah.

then headed to plaza singapura and ate at LJS.

i've been eating LJS nowadays and i dunno why.

after that,walk around.

went into Dorothy Perkins and erykah fell in love with one of the tops.

so did i.

we had not enough cash,so called mommy and asked her if we could use her nets card to buy the tops.

and she said yes!

and so we did.

but we didnt buy straight away.

we walk around again hoping to find something nicer.

but we couldnt fins any.

at first i wanted to grab something at topshop.

but too bad there's no Topshop at PS.

so went into Dorothy Perkins again and bought the tops!

so yea.

after that headed home but mommy wants to eat so withdraw 50 bucks then go buy the food.

so yea.

that's it fer now.

2007-01-22T18:35:00.000+08:00

heylo lovelies!

it's been a long time since i blog.

been pretty busy.

anyways,stuff happened.

i just had my tea break!

im kinda full.

so yea..

well,got back home early today.

cus of my leg,it was hurting supar badly la.

and i cried.

cus it's hurts.

so i cabbed back home.

and bla bla bla.

then my grandma waited for me under the void-deck.

pass money and helped me up.

so cute of her.

then i slept all the way till 5.

then mama called.

asking me how am i feeling.

and my dad too.

but i was when dad called,i was asleep.

so he talk to my gram instead.

maybe will be going to the hospital later.

but see how la eh.

what actually happened to me was i stress frature my shin bone.

so yea.

and guess what?

im the secretary cum vice-chairman of my class.

it pretty suck cus i have to do that and this.

so yea.

i guess tiil here.

tata!

2007-01-06T21:15:00.000+08:00

im fcuking bored can?

stayed home the whole day today!

i didnt do much.

all i did was watch tv,eat,get online and bla bla bla.

so yea.

anyways,i dont know why but nowadays im so really really into netball la.

usually i tend to slack.

but now,im the most enthu!

haha.

and hell!

i hurt my knee and shin bone.

and am not allowed to train.

im scared that it's hairline crack as what naidi told me.

so yea..

and im having my daisy tan carnival nxt week!

how can i not train?

anyways,im up to sumthing nowadays,which i wont wanna say.

till here ppl!

chao!

2007-01-04T17:12:00.000+08:00

hello lovelies!

it's the second day of sch today!

anyways,shall tell you bout the 1st day of sch which is ytd.

i had to wake up extra early now onwards.

cus the my sch holding site is much further than my old sch.

so yea.

ytd,i woke up 5.45..

took my bath and bla bla bla.

my mom insist that i should leave the house at 6.30!

so as to reach sch on time.

she was so kiasu la.

haha.

but i left at 6.45 instead.

and she was nagging at me saying that im gonna be late and stuff!

but the timing was just nice.

and i reach sch 5 mins early.

so ya...

i took bus 196 to sch.

it wasnt so full of humans at first,only after the 3rd bus stop.

then at this particular bus stop,one of my junior board the bus.

he's known to be abit not well mentally.

and out of all the empty seats,he chose to sit BESIDE me!

lyk wth kn?

i was scared la cus for some reasons he will just yell and it's gonna be non-stop.

and he kept looking at me la.

so i just kept quiet.

then after the pledge taking and stuff it was the grooming and attire check.

i was sent out cus i used a PINK rubber band to tie up my hair and cus i dyed my beautiful hair and it wasnt obvious at all!

and i really mean it's not obvious!

where as my friend didnt when hers was obvious!

overall sch was okay.

i had training after sch and i reached home nearly 8 cus of the fcuking bus.

i waited fer lyk 20 mins?

so yea.

today sch was okay too.

we've started lessons for most of the subject.

after sch had a briefing for the aspire camp.

which will be next week from 10-12th of january.

the sec 3s will be going to St.John island.

and im one of them.

the sec 2s im not so sure.

the sec 1s will be in sch.

after the briefing,went back to clementi and ate at kfc with shafina and wirnida.

im the odd one out!

after that went home

hahas.

and here i am blogging!

am looking forward to sch tomorrow and i dunno why!

so chao!

2007-01-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

im just not in the fcuking mood!

it's new year and im at home.

was supposed to be out actually but then i reached home at 11.30 p.m from my grandma's place.

wanted to change and stuff but due the time,i just stayed at home!

and cause of some reasons too!

i cant be going countdown-ing with baju kururng ryte?

was able to reach home on time actually,but then have to follow my aunty to my gram's house which means i went there AGAIN!

sape tak bingit kn?

ok whatever!

im so fcuking not in the mood and im goona take a bath!

a bath will cool me down i supposed!

2006-12-31T02:10:00.000+08:00

guess what??

today my sisters went to vivo and...

my eldest sister bought me a lastest design of Converse bag for my sch bag and it costs her $79.90!

and my second sister bought me Jack Purcell for my sch shoes which cost her $59.90!

lyk how cool can they get?

and how happy can i be?

erykah got Lonsdale London for her sch bag and it cost $99.90 and Jack Purcell for her sch shhoes too!

she like my bag where as i like hers!

but still,i do like my bag too!

it was their pay day so yea,they decided to buy us those stuff!

actually papa wanted to buy me a Puma bag but since my sister bought one already so he said next time..

i love papa and my sisters alot alot can?

and not forgetting mama who has sacrificed alot for us too and including my step-daddy!

then today wnt to mustafa centre for a while.

my sister bought some toiletries.

after that went for supper at Mak's Place.

the food was superb i shud say.

and yah,not forgetting abg fifi,my sister's bf for driving us around!

2006-12-29T17:37:00.000+08:00

heys!

it's been 3 days since i blog.

to my daily readers,if i have one,sorry yea?

been pretty busy.

well,ytd i went to buy my sch books.

then ltr in the afternoon,went to town with my family to eat the nasi ayam penyet ria!

it was nice.

so yea.

and today,i woke up at 4 plus lyk that!

wth kn?

i was fcuking tired cus i slept at 4.30 lyk that.

was up reading book!

ok,i gtg fer now!

2006-12-26T02:14:00.000+08:00

it's kikyn ya'all.

cute aint she?

and pretty too.

well,i've actually known her for 3 yrs.

through friendster.

but we only started to mee up this yr.

she a super cool girl.

my blur queen!

i love hanging out with her.

she'll make ur day a good one.

she's sucha sweet ass.

2006-12-26T02:07:00.000+08:00

it's Hanis.

my super bitch.

my bestfriend since we were nine.

been through thick and thin with her.

get into fucking troubles together.

i just love her alot alot can?

and i also wanna specially thank her for all the thing she've done for me.

i love hanis!

2006-12-26T02:00:00.000+08:00

it's Alistair a.k.a Baba.

my precious.

haha.

anyways this guy here is the one who can entertain my nonsense..

play stupid daring game with me and even volunteer to lose.

how cool can he get?

a very caring guy.

there's no other friend lyk him.

he's one friend that i cant afford to lose.

and i specially wanna thank him for bing sucha good friend.

2006-12-26T01:33:00.000+08:00

it's 1.35 am and im still not asleep.

just not tired.

at times i wonder,what are friends?

what excatly they are for?

are they the ones to share and our cryers and laughter with?

or they are friends cus they are friends.?

at times,what they say might hurt u like a bullet astray.

and all u can do is keep quiet cus u wouldnt want to ruin the friendship u've built with them.

well,im just thinking really hard.

anyways,i have alot alot of things which i wanna say.

but i just dunno how and when to.

so yea,every now and then,u will see me writing bout strange topic.

im actaully just pen-ing down my thoughts u see.

and damnn!

schs about to re-open soon.

and i havent bought a single thing!

books,sch shoe,bags,stationaries and everything that has got to do with sch!

i cant wait for sch to be re-open too!

i cant believe im saying this,I MISS SCH!

2006-12-25T23:46:00.000+08:00

my precious aunt with my second sister and little dyan.

hello all!

i wen t with my aunty today.

went to vivo.

she planned to shop but didnt cus tangs was closed fer the day due to christmas!

so we end up walking around and dsiturbing my sis at werk.

hahs!

ate at banquet.

i ate lemon chicken rice and tempura plus ebifry sushi.

aunt says eat whatever i wanna eat so i shant stand on ceremony.

and eat to my fill.

i know i know i sounded lyk a greedy girl right?

but eating is love la.

so yea.

after eating aunt didnt feel well.

she went to the toilet and puke!

hahahs.

and worst still,the toilet was so long that she had to puke and the basin.

and guess what?

her vomit couldn't drain down.!

digusting,i know.

then sh equickly left without no one noticing.

if the cleaner were to be there,im sure she's gonna scold my aunty.

but cant be helped la.

rather than my aunt puke on the floor,at least she used the basin right?

so yea.

we sat by the bay.

then aunt ask me if i wanted anything..

but i said no,thou actually i want.

and then went up to the 'swimming pool'.

and sit and sit.

and then i went home.

the only best part of the day was the eating part.

thanks aunt!

she's the only aunt whom im closest to and well as my sisters.

PICTURES for viewing pleasure.

2006-12-24T17:32:00.000+08:00

these are some of the pictures i took ytd at home.

TODAY was sucha BAD day.

2006-12-24T01:34:00.000+08:00

hello lovelies!

today was sucha BAD day because there's this fcuking salon

at east coast really pissed me and kikyn off.

firstly,we couldnt find that place.

then we had to walk for 3 bus stops.

as in walk to find that place and it was 3 bus stop long.

so at the 3rd bus stop,we took 12 again in order to reach that place.

so yea.

as soon as we reach there,they took photos of us.

then after that they wanted kikyn to steam her hair. but she had to pay for lyk 27 bucks for it.

so she said no cus not enough money.

then the lady insisted that she steam her hair cus kikyn hair is dry due to her highlighting.

then she said no.

then after that they say they cannot do our hair cus we UNDER-AGE.

LYK hjhksducslknggpwof!

i was also ask to be a model at this beauty sch before ok?

and i was 13 then.

age doesnt matters la.

still hair what.

so we left that place.

and headed to bugis and then orchard.

went over to kikyn's mom's werkplace.

then chill at subway fer a while and headed off to far east and the story goes on.

and i met my sister,erykah.

walk walk with her and the story goes on again.

im lazy to type on..

so yah.

gtg fer now!

tc ya'all.

i'm back yaw.

2006-12-22T18:42:00.000+08:00

Hey ya'all.

welcome back to my blog.

im gonna start blogging again.

and ppl,re-link me yea?

anyways,for the past few months,

stuff happened.

good ones and bad ones.

but that is what life is.

full of ups and downs.

and now,a new year is about to begin which means a NEW me.

things happened so fast.

so yea,i've decided to stay home for today.

kinda bored thou.

i spent all my day watching tv.

eating and doing the usual stuff.

im supposed to go to sch today for my netball training.

we're gonna have a match against the B1.

i had my reasons for not going.

ok,enough said.

will blog again ltr.

Be Without You

2006-12-21T18:24:00.000+08:00

Hey love, hey love turn yourself around

Cause I got that brow

You're in love

They call me L-mahogany

cause of the things that I do

Like disappearing for a week with my crew

Like making sure that all my peoples got loot

Like watching out for Babylon in the blue

They be like why do she rock so fly

On the microphone its do or die

Brothers be like oh my

You don't know what you're missing

Its Fugees and Mary

I can't deal with the fact

That you don't want me around

Why you wanna see me down

It's so unusual

That you don't love me no more

Why you wanna close the door

I spend all my days

And all my nights with you

Just tell me what am I gonna do

Without you

If loving you is so right

Tell me how I make it through the night

You know that I don't ever wanna leave you

I wanna be with youI

just wanna be with you

Nothing else I'd rather do

I want to spend my life with you, oh

Let's take this time to think about

What was said and done

Now tell me why you had to run away from me

Now I can't sleep at night

Why we have to fight

Every day from you

I look and I see something new

Now tell me what I got to do, uh

To get this through to you

It's the little things you do for me

That make me very happy

You know that I don't wanna leave you

I love you I keep

Put your number in parenthesis

So I can know your borough

You mind if I say hello

We can make it healthy, you know

A strong ghetto love

Cause you met me at the net

That ain't where I wanna be

I need my family

That's what I need, know what I'm saying, word

Chastity I'll be if you're looking for a refugee

See my love anoints all your joints in the erogenous points

I make ya tipsy, read you your fortune like a gypsy

So lift me to this plateau and don't forget the chateau

Cause you without me just ain't natural

You don't want me there

And it's beginning to make me so scared

So scared that I might lose you

All I wanna do is be with you baby

I just wanna pick up the phone I know if you do, do oh yea